[1/30] Tuesday, September

Sometimes it seems like all I ever do is lie.

My mom thinks I'm repressing my feelings about this.
I say to her, "No, Mom, I'm not. I think it's really neat.
As long as you're happy, I'm happy"

Mom says, "I don't think you're being honest with me."
Then she hands me this book.
She tells me she wants me to write down my feelings in this book,
since, she says,
I obviously don't feel I can talk about them with her.

She wants me to write down my feelings?
Okay, I'll write down my feelings:
I CAN'T BELEVE SHE'S DOING THIS TO ME!
Like everybody doesn't already think I'm a freak.
I'm practically the biggest freak in the entire school.
I mean, let's face it :
I'm five foot nine, flat-chested, and a freshman.
How much more of a freak could I be?

If people at school find out about this,
I'm dead. That's it. Dead.

Oh. God, if you really do exist,
please don't let them find out about this.

There are four million people in Manhattan right?
That makes about two million of them guys.
So out of TWO MILLION guys.
she has to go out with Mr. Gianini.
She can't go out with some guy I don't know.
She can't go out with some guy she met at D'Agostino
or wherever. Oh, no
She has to go out with my Algebra teacher.
Thanks, Mom. Thanks a whole lot.

• as long as s+v : ~ 하는 만큼 ~하기만 한다면
• it's really neat : 결백해
• obviously definetley : 명백하게 명확하게
• practically : 사실상 실제로, 오버해서 말하면
• entire : 전체
• let's face it : 현실을 직시하자
• freshman : 신입생